If you asked me a year ago what i would be wanting to do as a career i would of been able to give you an answer straight away. At the present its a very different situation. The truth is i don't really know anymore.
Don't get me wrong i'm very happy with life at the moment. Ive got my girlfriend Nicky who i care very much for. Ive got my friends and family a job and well Gooch (Gooch is my Fiat Sceicento). But career wise i'm stumped now.
I was in a band a year ago, Sawn Off Idol. I really saw myself doing that for the rest of my life at the time. I was so happy with things, it was like a dream come true. We were anything but big time but singing in a bands my dream and well it came true. A year after it began it was over and i was left feeling empty. A dark void filled my life and it was difficult but i got over it.
To this day i still want to sing in a band, its still my dream. But its so difficult now, its just hurdle after hurdle. I can't get a line up sorted and my patience is wearing rapidly. A don't think theres ever been a band without problems arising though.
After Sawn Off i relised i need a back up plan, something to keep me going until things take off. When i'm 21 i'm applying for my LGV License (Large Goods Vechicle). Trucking is also another dream as mine, growing up around a scrapyard it runs in my blood,I can't escape it. Too most people i imagine when a Lorry goes by no one thinks much about it, with me i'm mesmorised by it. I remember being about 5 or 6 down at the yard always pestering the Truckers to let me sit in the Truck whilst they were getting paid off my grandad. Of course most would say no but every now and again one trucker would say yeah sure kid, let me show you my truck. Allister was my favourite trucker he took me for a ride in the truck one time, it was sweet.
Since i passed my driving test last year ive fell in love with the road. Theres something very romantic about it and majestic, it sounds weird but it almost becomes your friend. I feel at peace on the road.
This has been more or a less a frustration release blog. I feel a hell of a lot better after writing this out. More blogs will be coming soon of better interest, its been far too long.
Love and Bruises
Matt.A
ps. the blog title is the name of a Pink Floyd album, it fucking rules make sure to check it out.
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Got to say trucking something I've always thought would be a great thing to do, I doubt I'll ever do it since I'm bloody terrified of driving, but it does seem like something I think you'd be suited for; good luck getting a band sorted dude.
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