What Is Love ?

I was having a vivid nightmare last night and it brought back floods of memories, parts of the past i wish i could just erase. I sometimes ponder why can't i get this whole thing out of my head and get on with my life.
Well folks its because of a thing called Love.
Love is an emotion most people can feel on a day to day basis. You may have a love for that person your talking to, or that coffee your drinking, or hell that day your living in. But as Love can be a positive thing it can also be a negative thing ultimatly.
Love and Hate are very much the same thing, you can't have one without the other, there borderline and almost the same thing. To Hate someone you have to of Loved them at some point. But thats the thing with Hate, although its a dark and moody emotion its just Love covered over real good. Love is a very powerful emotion, it can make you do crazy things.
I like every other person on this planet Love things. I Love my Family and Friends, Pets, Singing and all the Other things i do on a day to day basis.
However i have only ever Loved few women.
I'm writing this Blog in a sort of therapy to get out of the long rut of caring for somebody, why care for someone who doesnt care back ? see its pointless isnt it.
You see it can seem your almost out of that whole in the ground and then she appears again to make your life hell again.
Do they mean to do it ? depending on there personailtys its yes or no situation, but it can be done with malicous intent thats for sure.
You see i thought i was in the clear and then i saw her and it all came flooding back. It just kept playing over that should be me over there with her, but then it hits you and realitys crashes. Its over you have to move on.
Nothing you can say or do is gonna win her back its over.
The truth is i want people who read this to understand you are never Alone in this world, no matter whats going on in your life your Never Alone. There comes a time and place when you have to pull out of the race and accept what happens.
If you can swap the Love and Hate for Self Dignity and Acceptance your well on the road to recovery. Thats something i'm on the cusp of doing.
Writing this has been very theruputic for me and i mean not to bore you. I will be back very soon with proper blogs of INTEREST !

Hang In There.

Matt.A